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There is a misconception… that has occasionally developed into a deceiving lie. That creative people, like me, are just SO FULL of creative inspiration that we HAVE TO create art. 

Like a bubbling, overflowing pot that’s about to burst forth and that’s what the end result is. The artwork. An expression of something that couldn’t be contained.

...

In some ways, that is true.
There are magical moments like that where you just feel like you’re possessed.

Obsessed.

Positively mad & so full of energy that you know you do HAVE TO ride this wave and create the thing that’s bursting to be born.

It’s intense and crazy and sometimes really awesome. 

besides the burn out

and our very human need to sleep, eat, play & all those normal things. 

The other way? 

That’s the 90% of all creative endeavours. 

Especially when, like me, you’re doing this as your job.

There really isn’t a magic formula. Every creative, especially those with a sustainable creative practice, has some form or other of this formula.

You show up.

You do the work in front of you.

You go home & rest.

Tomorrow, you show up again and repeat. 

Some of us like to infuse music.
Some like to start with a ritual of research, the perfect cup of coffee or an exercise routine.
Others sleep in until the afternoon before stepping into their respective studios.

But in the end that ‘formula’ is the same. 

The muse can’t show up to shower you with that intense energy of creativity to be burst forth on the canvas,

if you’re not there STANDING in front of the canvas. 

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I use to keep a sketchbook journal where I wrote a lot of notes.

My sketchbook was never anything arty & fancy. I didn’t paint in it much or do full-page drawings. Yes, there are plenty of doodles and sketches. Mainly just notes.

Nowadays, I love my iPhone. There is a folder in my Evernote called ‘Inspiration for paintings’ I also have notebooks for quotes. Plus my ‘notes’ nowadays are just quick random photos from my everyday life.

I’ve found, with the fullness of a mama life, I have to be prepared for little notes of inspiration from the muse no matter where I am.

Before kids, I was usually in the studio and I could just start on the inspiration straight away. At the very least I was only a few steps away.

Nowadays, I could literally be doing the grocery run, hands full of trolleys, toddlers & tantrums. 

So if something makes me stop for a moment, I’ve learnt to just notice. To catch the whisper of inspiration before if fades.

Just notice! that’s a practice too!

I take a photo and know that my weekly photo reviewing will mean I will put it into the appropriate notebook. If I have an extra second, I put it into the notebook straightaway with notes. 

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That’s why, questions like: where do you get your ideas?

is such a hard one to answer.

It could have been a single moment during a very busy, monkey mind day.
My intuitive mind stopped everything to focus on this flower I noticed on my way to buy milk. It was only a split second, but the pause was definitely there. 

And that somehow, when reviewed with my notes, inspired another photo of this texture I saw while I was walking to the cafe during a kinder run.

Mixed with maybe a half dozen other inspirations I don’t even know I’m thinking of.

My days are already so full that I only have time to just create from these ideas that are waiting patiently to be created.

Most days, I don’t have the time, or energy or mind space to back track my incredibly crazy, complex & multi-directional ideas to where they originated from. 

And to be honest, I'll rather just create than question the source of the inspiration. 

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So instead of waiting for inspiration to strike, show up at the easel. 
Show up at the writing table
Show up to the guitar/piano/drum set
Show up in the kitchen.
If you wait until you have the idea, you’ve probably missed the moment when the muse shows up. She’s fickle like that.


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Some days I may not feel like it either. 

Like there is a huge cloud covering my minds eye on where to go next. 

I’ve found that just showing up in the studio still helps. Even if all I do is clear up my space.

The act of decluttering can also work it’s own magic. It creates a kind of stirring up of the bottom of the river.
Something may uncover itself in your mind as you’re consciously occupied in something mundane. 

There is also a kind of silence when you’re just in your space. Even if it’s just sitting in front of the screen with the blank page.

Start with these to show up, show up, show up:

  1. Keep a folder of ideas & notes to cultivate your inspiration garden. 
  2. Show up at your ‘space’ of creation anyway & touch your tools. Paints, pens, keyboard, clay, wool. Clearing, cleaning, tidying & decluttering can also help stir up some of that dusty fog in your mind.
    At the very least, it clears a space both physically (or even just digital folders) to make room for the new creation that you must TRUST is coming.
  3. Just START. Know that it will be bad, release the pressure for perfection and get some paint onto that canvas. Words onto that blank page. Fingers on the keyboard. 

where do you get your ideas?

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I created the masterpiece of a lifetime the other day. 

Along with my dream morning of going to the beach, getting the best hair cut, working in my perfect studio, playing with my delightful child and eating the yummiest dinner.
That I made. From scratch. By hand. 

Also, obviously, winning the lottery. 

For daydreams, it was one of the best.

Now, I'm not here to dismiss daydreaming, or visualisations of your ideal life.

I want you to note the 'created the masterpiece' part. 

So many amazing creations are done in my head. 

Best paintings.
Witty emails.
New products and online workshops
All created out of thin air so perfectly in my mind.

The issue really only happens when they stay there.

Or worse, when I say to myself: 

'Oh that was a nice dream, if only it could happen it real life. But it could never so let's forget it and get on with my day.'

It's the same feeling I get when I meet people who talk to me about my artwork

they gush about how Creative I must be. 

How Amazing it is to have such talent. 

And here is the punch line....

How they wish they could paint but....

they could NEVER paint because they just AREN'T creative. 

This isn't EVERYONE who compliments my work - most of my fans and certainly my collectors are amazing creative & lovely people. They express their love & I can see that they express their creativity in different ways to mine by our conversations & also just by their art collection. 

Now, I am totally happy to accept all flattery and positive, loving feedback about my work & art.

Working in the studio is a solo and sometimes, lonely solitary activity. 

Showing the art that was created does feel vulnerable and scary. So getting that positive feedback is more than welcome to calm the nerves.

It's the CERTAINTY with which they say such negative things about their own creativity that makes me uneasy.

I mean, did they actually TRY painting? 

Did they actually do it for a decent amount of time and give it a good go? 

Before they shut that down and say things like NEVER and SO NOT CREATIVE. 

Do they know that creative doesn't just mean painting? 

There is music, cooking, writing, making films, acting, dancing, creating businesses, creating books, creating festivals, creating anything really. Like cakes, cubby houses, actual houses, even spreadsheets. 

The other thing I've also found alot is, those who shower me with such compliments but is also very quick to dismiss their own creativity? They also dismiss my work just as quickly. 

As in, they don't take the time to connect with it deeply. They don't stand in front of the artwork to look within and see and feel something deeper. I think it's hard to appreciate someone else's creativity while dismissing your own. The sad thing is, sometimes I can see how much they yearn to collect art but can't even bring themselves to do that either! Whether that's a painting like mine or something simple like a beautiful hand made vase. I know how much JOY there is in being surrounded by beauty and art. 

Shutting down your own creativity tends to shut down other's too. 

But it also makes me think about me. (p.s I've found it insightful to turn things around when something/someone is bothering me consistently. What if everyone or everything is a mirror? What could you learn about yourself you never saw before?)

What am I totally dismissing about myself without actually trying?

 What am I ignoring because I am holding a firm (yet unproved) belief about my abilities without trying to see beyond the box I'm in? 

What am I saying ' that's just the way it is' or 'if only..,' about my situation without taking the time and effort to first, actually 100% try, and second, look beyond what I expect the answer to be? How can I be open to a different answer to achieve my goals?

How about you? 

What are you wishing for an opportunity to do, say, experience that you KNOW you would NEVER or could EVER do?

Is that really true? Have you actually tried with honest to goodness effort? 

Is there another way to play with your creativity without having to be 'whatever or whoever' you're looking up to?




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...

My 3 year old dances at every opportunity. 

If she hears a song playing at the shops she will dance. She loves EMMA from The Wiggles and sees plenty of professional dancers doing their thing beautifully during her limited screen times. 

That doesn't stop her.

She loves moving and music.

She feels it, she does it!

She will WANT me to video her dancing and sometimes insist I join in. 

And no. She's no dance prodigy. It looks more like a random head nodding, leg spasm with a twist of hand & hip twirling thrown in. 

BUT the thing is... I think of her as a dancer. Cos she dances. 

I know how easy it is, (and comfortable) to sit on the sidelines and watch those you admire dancing so beautifully. 

Having the best time. 

You want to enjoy yourself like that. You want to dance with that person you admire too! You wish you could dance beautifully but you just KNOW you could NEVER do it cause you're not a dancer. 

I know that maybe you're not going to look like a professional dancer. But there is a difference between a dancer and a pro dancer. 

What if you're not a dancer simply because you're not dancing?

What are you daydreaming about? Is it a dream home? the dream holiday or a dream weekend retreat? 

The magazines you're browsing, ads you're pausing just a moment longer to watch... Is there a way you can just start doing what you're dreaming of? 

Pick a country and look up flights so you know how much you need to save and by when.  

Call up a girlfriend and promise each other to have a weekend away in a month - and schedule in your leave.

Start with one room in the house and buy that cushion or that artwork (*hint hint shop here) and make a dream room first.

Want to paint? or work with ceramics? 

Look up a creative workshop that teaches basic skills in the area you're interested in and schedule it in. 

Want to write? Grab a pen & paper or sit in front of the computer, set the timer for 15minutes and START WRITING

Want to dance? Turn up the music and just dance. 


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Dear Lovely friend,

This is for you if you're feeling the overwhelm monster looming over your shoulder

This is for you (& really me) who feel the pressure of all your dreams and goals for the year ahead & you haven't begun the way you had hoped on January 1st.

This is for those moments when the task seems bigger than your capacity to even imagine.

This is for you when the bad days that suck so bad drag out into weeks. 

And there isn't even the slightest whiff of relief to come. 

For when the light at the end of the tunnel feels like a figment of your desperate imagination. 

I want to say 'There there. It will be alright' But that just feels like bulls**t.

So all I can say is, with what little energy is left, please keep that spark of faith going. 

The faith in your process. 

The faith in a new sunrise each day. 

The faith that this messy middle will pass and it's actually VITAL for the breakthrough to come.

The faith in the rainbow after the storm. 

Even if you can't see it. 

Especially when you can't see it. Feel it. Or even picture it in your mind.

In those moments when it almost feels too much.  

Or feels 'Totally Hopeless!!' said with a high shrill by Ms Barbara, my inner drama queen.

I like to focus on the next smallest step. 

However 'impossible' there is always a small step forward. 

It may feel so small that there seems to be no point. 

BUT THAT IS THE POINT! 

I just look for the tiny drop in an ocean of overwhelm I can possibly just do right now. 

Then the next step

Then the next. 

Then the next

With lots of breaks in between to drown/sulk in that sea of overwhelm. 

Then the next step

Then with after what feels like a BILLION YEARS AND STEPS

the clouds break. The rainbow shines it's light. 

It's done! 

The ocean of To dos is behind me and I stand on new shores. 

Shores that I couldn't possibly imagine, let alone see in those moments of darkness. 

YAY!

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But for now. I'm with you.

It's dark. It's hard to see past your own nose.

It's all just SO hard. Like dragging your feet through muddy quicksand. 

Everything is a mess. Your files. Your room. Your hair!

You're not doing everything properly. Let alone to the standard of excellence you pride yourself.

Let alone that big ass goal you've set that you were SO SURE. This. IS. The. YEAR! 

...

One small step forward. 

One phone call to connect with family

Schedule one dinner date unto the calendar

Set a timer for 5 minutes to research flights to that dream destination

Start a new document for that blog post

Create a bullet point list of all the main ideas for your new product offering.

Pick one colour. One paintbrush and put something down onto that scary white blank canvas.

Replace colour with an idea. Paintbrush with pen and put something down onto that scary white blank piece of paper. 

You ARE doing an amazing job. 

Keep going. 

I'll see you on the other side

MAY YOU SEE PAST THE IMPOSSIBLE AND TRUST


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The magic is in the air. 

New clean slate.

That new diary/planner smell.

Shiny clean wall calendar with all those blank spaces.

All the hopes and dreams to be found in endless possibilities.

So let's begin!

What do you want to feel throughout 2017?

What do you want To Be?

To do?

To Have?

Look at these areas of your life: Review where you stand. Then what do you want to achieve by the end of 2017

Home/Environment.
Romance.
Friends & Family.
Work/Career.
Spirituality.
Hobby/Thing you do JUST FOR THE JOY.
Physical Health.
Mental/Emotional Health.
Finances.
Personal Development

Set SMART goals.  Set one word intention for the year. Set SMARTER goals. Set 90 day goals. Set Habit goals. What is your 3 year plan? Five year plan? 

...

Hyperventilating yet?

I LOVE planning, but I know that list makes me both excited & anxious. 

Anxious like, I’m going to just curl into a ball in bed for the next month. See you later!

If only I had set myself up earlier.

If only I didn't forget all these appointments in January. So now I'm catching up on that & falling behind of everything else.

If only I had made my 2017 plans before the crazy busyness of Christmas. 

If I had just crossed all those to do lists off AND made the PERFECT plan

I would be so much further along by now.

I would find this work so much easier - just follow the next step

Instead I’m still creating a plan from scratch, tying up loose ends. Starting projects that HAS TO START NOW.

while also catching up on ALL THE THINGS.

No wonder chocolate & TV has featured so heavily in my diet the last few weeks

Overwhelm is coming back - like an old smell that lingers.

No matter how many times you blast that shit with bleach. 

No matter how long you put it in the sun.

That smell…

it smells like fear & regret & doubts & just a hint of self-loathing. Only because you know that YOU KNOW BETTER.

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Start where you are.

Yup it’s totally not perfect.

Yeah, it may be easier if you had just made that to do list and weekly plan LAST week. Instead of right now. In the middle of everything else.

Yeah, probably should have maintain your exercises instead of letting that slip. So now that bad back is another thing to look into

Just put it on the list.

Start where you are.

Pick one thing. Do that thing. Finish that thing.

Pick another ONE thing. Do that.

Keep going until it’s time to go to bed.

Cos that bad back needs sleep lady

...

Sure, it would be totally easier if you had a cleaner, a chef, a housekeeper, a butler, a maid, a nanny, chauffeur, a personal stylist, personal dresser and a host of personal assistants all just waiting to make YOUR life amazing.

Plus all the money in the world to pay for all this & it just falls magically into your lap.

So, you know, you don’t have to worry about taxes and banking and stuff.

OH and a 27hr day would be good thanks!

Maybe if you only need like, 2 hours of sleep?

Use what you DO have.

It can be easy to focus on the gap ahead of you. 

Between where you are and where you want to be.

That gap only grows bigger the longer you stare at it. 

Plus it makes you feel SHIT! about yourself. about your life. ALL. THE. THINGS.

I know when I feel like that, I lose what little energy I have left to keep going.

Instead, look at where you are now. 

Look for what you DO have.

Look back at all that you've done between who you were to who you are now. 

No, not all the things you WISHED you had done. That's looking at the gaps.

I bet there are moments that make you happy & proud of your amazing self & life. 

Yes, this is that gratitude practice you keep hearing about.

What can you do today? 

What do you have on hand?

What one thing, no matter how small, can you say you’re proud of? That you’re happy with.

If you say nothing, you have a different (too big for my expertise) problem and I lovingly suggest you focus on finding someone to talk to and work on your mental and emotional health.

...

You DO have something!

You’re reading this! (*patting myself on the back* Ha! No, seriously I thank you for connecting with me here. All my love!)

You made time to think about yourself! 

You know you have the next 5 minutes to do a brain dump and write down ALL THE THINGS. 

Once it’s out of your head, you’ll instantly feel lighter. 

The overwhelm may still linger, but you can SEE it and it is contained onto that sheet of paper.

You have a pen. You have a piece of paper.

Pick one thing on that list. The most important. Most urgent. I don’t care.

Yes there are strategies to a more ‘efficient system’

but right now that smell isn’t going away and you ain't go no time to go learn another new system.

pick one thing. do that one thing. You’ll feel empowered and get some energy back to keep going.

I also know that YOU KNOW one thing you can do. Been wanting to try. Had done before but fell off that bandwagon.

Whatever it is, you know that one thing will help lift you up and move one baby step forward. 

Not asking for the perfect thing. Nor a miracle here. 

I just know as you're reading this, something popped up in your head like a little hopeful hand waving at you. Go do that thing.

Do what you can

While you’re doing that one thing on your list. Something WILL COME UP. 

You will hit a roadblock. 

Your back will give out a bit. You’ll walk like an old old lady. An old lady with arthritis. Painfully slowly and in pain.

Someone may vomit all over you. Or you're the one stuck in the toilet.

You may need something you don’t actually have and didn’t know you needed or even how you're going to get it.

Basically all the signs will scream at you to STOP.

You’re going the wrong way.

You’re the wrong person for this job

You’re doing it wrong

You’re just not good enough.

That’s what the voices will say. Yes, you have voices in your head now on top of that bad back.

It’s not a sign to stop

it’s not a sign that you’re doing the wrong thing

it’s definitely not a sign you're the wrong person. 

What if it’s just part of the process?

If it was totally easy, you would have done it already remember? 

What if it's a sign that you're on the way? Bumps and potholes as a way to boost your determination. Your energy. Your resolve.

So what to do?

You do what you can.

if you need to pause a moment to get the tools you need. Do that

If you need to ask for help. Do that

If you need to put it aside, because something else moved up the priority list? Do that!

If you can put aside the emotional attachment that what happened was a personal attack on you - you can keep going.

which will then make you feel stronger, better & more empowered. Which starts the circle of happy which means more energy and motivation to keep going. Before you know it, your ambitious self will be back. Your super powers will come help you kick ass.

And you’ll remember all that awesome you're looking for? You’ve always had within you.

MAY YOU FIND THE MAGIC WAS IN YOU ALL ALONG


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    You know that feeling at the end of the work week...

    and you start to switch off before it's even 3pm Friday?

    That anti-climatic fizzing out feeling. 

    Maybe it's almost the end of a project.
    End of a season.
    End of the year.

    You start daydreaming of what's to come.

    Weekend plans. Next quarter projects. 
    That ONE thing you TOTALLY WILL do when the clock strikes midnight and it's January first.

    fffiiizzzzz...pppssssshhhh....  

    That's the sound of all motivation and productivity fizzling out.

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    I was feeling really lethargic after days of resting. 

    instead of resting i was resisting.

    Doing other things instead of the work I needed to do.

    The momentum had slowed down. I could feel the energy needed to start pushing the ball forward again. Pushing uphill actually.

    And well...laziness is so comfy isn't it?

    Plus it's already almost the end of the year. Let's just press the snooze button and work on the new year list of to dos instead. I'll do #allthethings....tomorrow/next week/next year!

    I have to keep telling myself to stop looking forward.

    Planning. Worrying. Dreaming.

    Totally counterintuitive for me.
    To stop future thinking.

    Stop dreaming of the future just long enough to see what I need to do today to actually bring my body forward match the vision of my mind.

    Not the thousand steps that will be needed.

    Just the ONE step I need to do (or CAN do) today.

    And also to 'smell the roses'

    To laugh with my family. To enjoy the fruits that were planted yesterday. Just breathe in the sweetness of today.

    Even if I feel sad and disappointed about all those missed targets.

    The dreams and goals that didn't quite happen. 

    That's when I fall back into remembering. Looking back. It's easy for my mind to swing back there too.

    Which way do you normally go? Too much forward? Or too much back?

    You end up frozen and do nothing when you're too future focused. Or you end up doing the wrong things. In the wrong order. 

    Plus the anxious disappointment! Always focusing on the gap between where you are and where you want to be? fiisss...ppsshhh.. there's that sound again!

    When you're too stuck in the past? You end up frozen as well! 

    Regret and disappointment blinds you to seeing the opportunities of today.

    Nothing wrong with thinking forward, or looking back.

    Without looking forward - you don't plan and take action with intention.

    Without looking back - you don't learn the lessons and end up going around in circles repeating mistakes.

    It's when you stay too long in either the future or past that causes problems. Your mind and body kinda needs to be together in the same time and place. Right?

    and your body is always in the present.

    (Unless you have the secret to time traveling! Please share if you do!)

    So this wallpaper is very much needed in my studio and office.

    It's not a new message. I know. Maybe even a bit cliche

    But this quote came at the right time for me. I hope for you too.

    What if we release yesterday. What if we leave tomorrow for...tomorrow.

    Let's begin the work we must do TODAY.

    MAY THIS WALLPAPER BRING YOU BACK TO YOURSELF TO BEGIN THE JOURNEY FORWARD

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    Beauty is a big value in my life. 

    Along with the other usual values like family, integrity, respect, kindness etc...

    Beauty is actually pretty high up there on the priority list. 

    Having beautiful things to look at is one of the great joys of my life.

    Seeing ugly things, literally sometimes, hurts my eyes. 

    (of course, when I say 'beautiful' it's totally subjective)

    I mean, I'm kinda in the business of beauty.

    Aesthetics, obviously

    I do want to create artworks that 'look' beautiful.

    But I always want to refocus that to the deeper kind of beauty. 

    Seeing through the colours and 'prettiness' into the depths where a beauty that feels like it resonates from within.

    You know, the kind of beauty that feels like it was earnt. 

    Or divinely discovered.

    Experienced in that full-bodied kind of way

    Or discovered after pain or heartache. 

    The beauty in a sunrise not just for the aesthetics,
    but because you just had a life or death experience the night before. 

    Or the beauty of a crying baby in your arms, after years of praying to fall pregnant. 


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    You know that kind of digging? 

    Digging into the depths to find that gem of beauty? 

    That's also the kind of hard,
    sometimes torturous work needed to clear the layers of baggage

    and pain

    and dirt

    and masks

    and all the junk before you find that little gem that is yours alone.

    The 'YOU' within. 

    What you find may not be what you expected. 

    Maybe not even what you hoped for.

    There may even be bits you find hard to look at.

    Yet all of it, not just the gem, but the whole process, journey and discovery?

    There is a kind of beauty in that too.

    The sad thing is, some people don't bother digging at all.

    Others stop when the work gets painful.

    Some just find it takes too long and they just settle. After all, it's all good right?

    Even sadder still is, when they do find something that is really their true selves - especially when they were forced to go on that journey, they decide to pretend it isn't there.

    Showcasing that gem within is a choice.

    It's a practice too. 

    Meaning, sometimes it's easy to go back to old habits. 

    Do things the way you've always done them, even though you want to do them another way. 

    Thought patterns that you always fall back to when hard times hit, even though you know it does't serve you any longer.

    Life gets more beautiful when all of us can showcase more of the gems that we are.


    May this wallpaper spark the fire within to choose your beautiful self


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    It used to be all about MY birthday.

    (October is birthday month in my house.)

    Then I went and ruined it by having a baby in October so...it's all about Indigo's birthday right now. Actually we've been counting down since August. #MumLife

    Birthdays for me is always a time of looking back at the past year.  

    If you've been following me on Instagram - you may have heard.  

    Big things happened and now I'm in a season of rest. Not by choice. But it's something my body, soul and heart needs.

    It's something I hope to share with you in the future, but right now, I'm still very much IN the forest. (so apologies for the vague mysterious sharing, but for now I'm resting in my privacy)

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    Incidentally, as much as I'm retreating within to be alone and to heal - I've been surprised to rediscover that I'm surrounded by loving friends and family. I'm well supported and I thank you for all the love!

    So this season of rest, as I'm taking gentle steps with myself. I'm reminded again and again that it's the small things that make up the great big things. 

    I'm still creating - I have a couple projects that I want to finish before 2016 ends. Drawings to finish, paintings are calling from the canvas and a drawing workshop to create. (I'll email you details to learn more soon!)

    I'm still in my studio and my schedule is still the same.

    The difference?

    I'm consciously being gentle, in flow and taking my sweet time.

    When I'm feeling the urge to hustle and work work work (cos... hello! This mama ain't got time to waste!) -- this quote reminds me to slow down.

    It reminds me that there IS power in the small things to add up to the big things. Big moments that I'm dreaming of are created one baby step at a time.

    (You can see that my new paintings have a lot of intricate details and linework that relates to this -- step by step, small marks add up to create a huge impact and visual texture)

    May this wallpaper encourage you to take the steps you need to take to create your Great thing. Big or small.


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    Ever feel like you're chasing after something -  hard

    Feeling like you just know that once you get it, you'll be able to relax. be satisfied. feel happy. complete. 

    Yet, when you get there. Nope. not quite. close but not quite. 

    Something else is still missing.

    Everything falls apart.

    We all make that mistake sometimes. (sometimes, all the time)

    Thinking that if we go ALL OUT in one area of our life - work. family. goals. etc... That if we just get perfect in that one thing.

    It will all be fabulous.

    It will all turn out for the best.

    Only then, you'll focus on the other balls you've dropped. 

    It doesn't always work out that way hey?


    Balance is like walking.

    Balance for me isn't about staying still - gaining that equilibrium of having two sides being even and so there is no tipping. 

    There will be times where you're putting all your weight (& effort) on one foot(like work-deadlines), while 'letting go' of the other leg (like family time-relationships) and then you step that leg down again.

    Then your focus becomes on relationships/family time again. 

    That's how you keep moving forward & stay balanced. 

    Staying on one leg, putting all your weight and focus on it for too long?

    That's how you fall.

    We make the mistake of thinking that by going after perfection in something - it will give us something we desire back.

    Yet that comes at the expense of so much - and it still isn't the answer. You don't get what you wanted. No, what you wanted isn't a sense of achievement. Or satisfaction at a job well done. Or even a sense of revenge to show those who said you couldn't do it.

    You don't get that true sense of contentment and joy that you're ultimately looking for. 

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    We need to be whole

    That's where that search for the sense of peace and joy comes from.

    We have so many different elements that make our lives whole.

    Family. Love. Relationships. Friends. Health. Work. Service. Fun. 

    These are things that give our lives meaning and purpose. 

    I think that we go after perfection in order to feel that sense of wholeness. 

    That's such a waste.

    You can pursue the wholeness directly. 

    Know what you need in your life - in all areas. (See the list above) 

    And pursue them with all the energy and to the best of your ability. Not pushing too hard - but definitely with focus.

    While keeping an eye on the bigger picture of making sure they are all being looked after.

    Don't wait until you drop the ball - Know which foot you're leaning on, accept it.

    BUT don't stay there too long.

    Look after the other areas of your life that you KNOW you need in your life. Put in the time and energy into them. 

    That's how you get the balance you need, keep moving forward and find that sense of joy in wholeness you've been searching for this whole time.

    May this month's wallpaper be a source of encouragement and inspiration for what you seek.

    x Brenda

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    Install Day was messy but exciting! 


     

    Thank you to everyone who came to my opening night!

    I had to take really quick photos before the room got too crowded again. Then I got too busy talking to people to take photos of the actual people! Lesson learnt.

    You can see all the paintings virtually here: Soul Blossom Exhibition

    and pick your favourites to bring home with you!

    x Brenda
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    Do I say this every time?

    There is such impact and resonance in my heart when I pick these words to create wallpapers from.

    Yet when I sit down to attempt to articulate what it was that made me feel like sharing this? 

    *blank*

    Let me try again

    Mercy.

    Here I mean (and the bible passage too):

    compassion and/or forgiveness that you show towards someone 

    The dictionary says:

    mercy

    ˈməːsi/ 
    noun 
    • compassion or forgiveness shown towards someone whom it is within one's power to punish or harm. 

    "within one’s power to punish or harm” 

    I think that power is important. 

    Yes there is the mercy that’s more about a kind of relief from suffering. 

    • an event to be grateful for, because it prevents something unpleasant or provides relief from suffering

    That power? Means a choice. Show mercy, or judgement. 
    Which biblically meant the kind of judgement in a legal perspective. 
    Here is the line. Did you cross that line? 
    No? Then go on your way. 
    Yes? Here is the punishment. 
    And it was fair and justified punishment.

    Not, random angry, spiteful punishment. 

    *distract self by making a hot milo* *keep finding more distractions* 

    You know what I resisted writing about for this quote? 

    Self-criticism and self-love. It felt too… I dunno, obvious? Nobody wants to be obvious right? 

    Then I got all shitty with myself 

    can’t you be more original? give a different perspective? Isn’t that what an Artist does? Question the status quo, rock the boat? 

    Then I got more shitty cos, you know, now that I’m on a roll I might as well… 

    what do you know about self-care, self-love? 
    Are you a coach now? 
    when was the last time you showed yourself some love? You know, like exercised, drank enough water, had enough sleep and ate the recommended amount of veggies?  Ummm too long? 
    You and I know that little muffin top is there even under all the layers you’re conveniently wearing cos it’s so cold this winter. 


    Oh yeah! Harsh much? 

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    Thing is, there IS a place for a bit of ‘judgement’ 

    In order to improve at something, and I'm a total lover of self-improvement/self-help, you need to know where you are.
    See the gap between that and where you want to be. Then evaluating whether your practice is adequate in getting you there. 

    But when was the last time you could make huge leaps in getting to where you want to be through harsh criticism only all the way?

    You know that self-care is self-love, as Ru Paul says.

    If you can't love yourself, how in the hell are you goin' to love somebody else?

    Amen? Amen!

    So no, I don’t really have that much to  say about self-love, self critics and self-care. that you haven’t heard. I do want to share more, and I’ll aim to do so in the future. But with a deadline looming. I’m showing myself some mercy and releasing what’s here.

    So please. 
    Just, take this as another reminder. If you need it. I know I obviously do. 

    Show some kindness

    ESPECIALLY when you have the power & are totally justified in getting your Judge Judy on all over someone.

    ESPECIALLY if that someone is yourself. 

    The judgement may be totally justified.

    You set your own rules, because you know in your heart it will help you be the person you want to be. 

    Just take the lesson you need, then dig deep for a drop of mercy & wrap yourself in kindness. You’ll find that it’s easier to pick yourself up and keep going. Plus, you’ll find so much more clarity for where to improve when you move past the heavy clouds of judgement into sweet, sweet rains of mercy. 

    Mercy triumphs over Judgement

    May you find freedom in sweet mercies for any heavy judgement that is keeping you chained

    x Brenda

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    Hi, I'm Brenda Mangalore.
    I create art that's about connection to ourselves, and to each other.

    Art is like faith and love, chaos and structure. There is beauty in the mess!

    And if we let it, it can be an anchor of self-expression in our spaces and in our lives.





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